Just checking in. A few people have asked how I've been. I've been dealing with major depression since my last post. I wish I could say that I'm doing better, but I'm still in a place I can't describe. A place of silence - a place where I have to struggle for words.
This has been quite a year. It seems that it just won't settle down.
So much has happened - some of it you all know about because we are all living it.
Some of the other happenings in 2020 --
An elderly couple was shot at the Veteran's Cemetery which is just separated from our neighborhood by a wooded area. The shooter hid in that area resulting in a lockdown of our neighborhood and a very long gun battle with police. Which we could hear from our house. Such a sad, surreal day.
Back in August we had very unusual weather for Delaware as a result of tropical storm Isaias. Three tornados, one that did a lot of damage in our neighborhood. It came through our back yard and across our deck. I know this because I was so stunned at what I was seeing that I watched it until debris started hitting the house. Sadly, just two doors down, they lost their roof and the back part of their house. So many homes uninhabitable in our neighborhood and I believe they said over 200 trees down, a lot of big, beautiful pine trees. We were extremely fortunate, just some minor damage to our siding.
But without question, the worst thing this year has been finding out that my father is sick. He probably doesn't have more than a year left in his life. My father and I have always had a complicated relationship - one that has gotten better over the years, but I feel like this has just about done me in. I have cried so many tears. It is such a sad thing for me and a frustrating thing in that he won't follow any of the instructions from his doctors.
I find myself wondering what will be next but at the same time trying to live in the present - focusing on finding the good.
I've visited blogs and read blogs now I just need to find the words to leave a comment. Working on it.
Hope you all are well and finding ways to get through this time. Take care.
Just want to add - I'm not sure what is going on with Blogger. My post keeps disappearing and then reappearing.