Sometimes they just fall right off all at once.
Here is a passage from a book I recently read.
"Parent time is like fairy time but real. It is magic without pixie dust and spells. It defies physics without bending the laws of time and space. It is that truism everyone offers but no one believes until after they have children that time will actually speed, fleet enough to leave you jet-lagged and whiplashed and racing all at once. Your tiny, perfect baby nestles in your arms his first afternoon home, and then ten months later, he's off to his senior year of high school. You give birth to twins so small and alike, they lie mirrored, each with a head in the palm of one hand while their toes reach only to the crooks of your elbows, but it's only a year before they start looking at colleges. It is so impossible yet so universally experienced that magic is the only explanation."
I loved this description.
I can remember looking into the faces of my children when they were newly home from the hospital. All of the hopes and dreams I had for them. You want them to be happy in life -- of course, you know that life isn't one big basket of happy -- life can be challenging, sad, etc. -- but you want them to grab every bit of happy they can.
Well, the wheels began falling off several weeks before Christmas, and life got very challenging and very sad for my children. I'm sure for those of you who are parents; you know that when your child is hurting, you are hurting. And both of mine are hurting right now. We are dealing with depression that has hit rock bottom and brings me to a word I can't even write here, and a completely unexpected, out of the blue event for my daughter. We are all just feeling a little stunned and overwhelmed right now.
I don't like to get too personal on my blog, (I guess I couldn't have gotten more personal) and I have gone back over this post and changed it quite a few times, but I would sincerely appreciate any prayers, positive thoughts, energy -- you could send our way.
Thankfully, time doesn't stand still, and I know we will eventually see our way past this difficult period. Right now for me, it is putting one foot in front of the other and a smile on my face and finding time each day to escape a little into the things I love. I finished stitching this small ornament from Blackbird Designs right before Christmas.
I promise to be a little more cheery next time. Until then I know blogging friends aren't real life friends, but your visits to my blog and your comments and emails and little glimpses into your lives make life happier, and I thank all of you.
We are experiencing the so-called "bomb cyclone" today as I'm sure a lot of you are. I'm so over this winter already, and we are only at the beginning of January.
Until next time stay warm and safe and take care.